By Tammi C. Walker
I got married at 22. I was divorced by 29.
I wanted to have at least 1-2 kids. I am now 45 with none.
I always thought of being around my parents as they were older. They both passed at the age 64.
These are just a few of my plans that never came to be. If you ever want to make God laugh, tell HIM your plans.
Our life is about lessons, choices, obstacles, love, life, happiness, grief, pain, joy, ups and downs. Many times the plans you make in your head will not map out. Even if some of them do, life does not come without challenges, setbacks, disappointment and road blocks.
I use to be a serious worrier. I was not a warrior but a worrier. To the point of depression. I always felt that things were not going to go right and they did not.
As I get older and I also do a lot of reading, I feel in my heart, my life is going the way it should. When I am stuck, unsure, confused, I ask God for wisdom. The book of James in the Bible speaks of wisdom and when a man lacks it he is to ask for it.
For my big decisions, I pause. I don't make a quick one. Such as going back to school, buying a car, etc. I contemplate over it for months maybe even a year or so. I research it out and then I decide and make my move.
I am a very emotional person and years ago I operated out of impulse. This caused many problems for me. Now I operate out of intuition and following God. It is not always easy but it seems to be working out better for me.
My life, I laugh some days, hey I did not plan any of this. To have cancer twice and to be without my parents and to not have kids. But guess what I am still here and this is the life that God is allowing me to have and I make the most of it. People tell me I can adopt kids. At 45 years old? That is not for me. But thanks for the suggestions. Am I happy? Hmmm most days actually I am. Is it perfect? My life is so far from perfect but I had to learn the secret of contentment. Paul from the Bible spoke about being content when you have a lot or a little. I am half way to 90 years old and I have a lot to learn about life. Every day is a teacher for me. I feel blessed, honored, ecstatic to even be on this thing called earth. God amazes me with His uncompromising love. Isn't that what life is all about love? Loving yourself and of course loving and being kind to others. So when your plans are thwarted, just hold on to your seat and enjoy the ride. God is riding right beside you.
Our life is about lessons, choices, obstacles, love, life, happiness, grief, pain, joy, ups and downs. Many times the plans you make in your head will not map out. Even if some of them do, life does not come without challenges, setbacks, disappointment and road blocks.
I use to be a serious worrier. I was not a warrior but a worrier. To the point of depression. I always felt that things were not going to go right and they did not.
As I get older and I also do a lot of reading, I feel in my heart, my life is going the way it should. When I am stuck, unsure, confused, I ask God for wisdom. The book of James in the Bible speaks of wisdom and when a man lacks it he is to ask for it.
For my big decisions, I pause. I don't make a quick one. Such as going back to school, buying a car, etc. I contemplate over it for months maybe even a year or so. I research it out and then I decide and make my move.
I am a very emotional person and years ago I operated out of impulse. This caused many problems for me. Now I operate out of intuition and following God. It is not always easy but it seems to be working out better for me.
My life, I laugh some days, hey I did not plan any of this. To have cancer twice and to be without my parents and to not have kids. But guess what I am still here and this is the life that God is allowing me to have and I make the most of it. People tell me I can adopt kids. At 45 years old? That is not for me. But thanks for the suggestions. Am I happy? Hmmm most days actually I am. Is it perfect? My life is so far from perfect but I had to learn the secret of contentment. Paul from the Bible spoke about being content when you have a lot or a little. I am half way to 90 years old and I have a lot to learn about life. Every day is a teacher for me. I feel blessed, honored, ecstatic to even be on this thing called earth. God amazes me with His uncompromising love. Isn't that what life is all about love? Loving yourself and of course loving and being kind to others. So when your plans are thwarted, just hold on to your seat and enjoy the ride. God is riding right beside you.
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